Yeah, I'm over here
Hi mom, I'm over here. Turns out that not long after the last post, i started a career. I've learned that i didn't know myself. Ididn't it all. and I kind of had my world crash down around me. It's a lot to put into words because it's 2 years of foundation building. How did life fall apart? My depression was manifesting. My perfectionism was agrivating to me and the people i love the most. I was setting unachieveable goals for other people, mostly Husband, without even telling him. I was projecting my perfection "value" onto my oldest. Just the worst kind of way to parent. I pushed and pushed and finally there was a breaking point. I had a total meltdown over dinner and got into therapy. By then it was a lot too late. Husband found himself a new group of friends and one of them was a predator. She tried to find her way into his world, unsuccessfully, but it wasn't noticed by him. That was the hurtful part. Once that all came to light, i realiz...